Sekinah. (سكينة)

Forgive me, for at this stage we might not really flow. Forgive me, for now that I write, I write for my soul. Forgive me, but I don't really care if you do. I've gone too far with my eyes at the back of my head. I've come too far, still I am scared the light will blind my eyes. I've come this far it's time I open my lids.

Tick Tick, Tock Tock, sounds that mounts fear in my heart. Tick Tock Tick Tock I am scared to open my box. Tick Tick, Tock Tock, what do I really want? 

I pray my day to come, a time when I can shed the skin I have acquired over the years. A time when all I will need is (سكينة)Sekinah.

As I said earlier on, please forgive me if we don't really flow for I write this just for my soul. It's time to choose but it's too hard a decision to make...

Please forgive me that I ask this of you. Please take me for I don't want to choose. Take me and take our pick.

                            By: Awonaike Seyi

Lonliness

Loneliness

A quiet night it is,                       
Sounds of crickets filled the air,       
The swooshing curtains,              
Cold shivers, as the breeze pierce through my skin.        
In the company of my thoughts,   
Going as quickly as they come, 
Imagination swirling round,        
Couldn't focus on one,          
The feeling of solitude.

        By : Atoyebi. M . Kehinde.

Dark Matters

I woke up in a room,
Foggy,
To the smell of punctured wounds
And burnt hair,
To the smell of dried blood
choking my lungs,
I tasted panic... and also the taste of blood.
Like iron..Yes! it tasted like iron...

2- Inferno by Awonaike Seyi

Flash of light almost blinding, pure darkness so relieving.
The devil's kiss dangerously tempting,
I swear, I could taste the sweetness promised,
The sweetness I longed for but dare not pursue
For I was doomed enough.
Shadows, all dark all around me.
Their breathes foggy.
All they had was holes as eyes,
They made me want to scratch my eyes out, I did...

Without sight I felt safe. 

Safe enough to stretch out my hands 

Not minding what I would touch after all my eyes were no more

Alas!!! I touched my eyes and felt them smile, horrid little things...

                To be continued....

1- Inferno by Awonaike Seyi.

And in this fire, I was cold. Bitterly so.
Demons as companions, the roads all mapped out.
Golden blaze, pretty pain, I was doomed. Still am.
Fire or ice, pity am stuck with Fierce
No escape, the tides already too high
Walls closing and choked up lungs
Unstable minds, merciless souls pleading...


                by: Awonaike Seyi


To be continued......

The promise by Awonaike Seyi.

They tried not to tell me, how cruel of them. He kissed me goodbye and said he would see me next week and next week, this week came and his desk was empty, his numbers not going through, I didn't see anything wrong in that, network was a big problem on sites. Still they refused to tell me, wicked was what they were and I hated them for it .
He had an accident, he is in Igbobi she told me, he has been there for three days  no, the rest was a blur

Oh God No!!! They said my love would never  walk again, I would walk for him
I would heal for him. But when I saw him, I knew I didn't have such strength

We met at work, we were enemies at first,  believe me we fought a lot to the extent that one of us had to be transferred to another office and everything changed after the new year's dinner the firm had 

I entered the new year with love in my heart and a man by my side. He was always there,I was always there, they all knew and we didn't care.

Six months of bliss and now this? I couldn't hold the tears down, I knew I had to be strong for him but he was my strength, I was not. I refused anyone from cleaning him up. My love, half here half there. I would rather he remained here than go there

I prayed, oh how I prayed and the next morning I went again his eyes lit up and I was glad that at least I could give him that and I mopped his body smiling and cleaned him up. Somehow, we talked with eyes only  and I saw his eyes and shouted No! What he was asking I couldn't give him. He was asking for my permission to go 

No you cannot do that! you cannot go and leave me here. So I told him the truth, that I could not heal for him, for we were broken together. I could not take away his pain, we felt it together and every morning as I cleaned him up and felt his broken bones, my bones shattered with his. If he goes, I go but we won't go together and we won't be together because I would hate him for giving up on us, because we both know that am not the strong one, he is my strength. If he stays, I stay by him and with him.

No you can't go you cannot leave me here alone, please don't go
I know how it sounded like, but it was no one's love to live and it was no one's love to judge. His eyes kissed me and I cried cause I knew I would have to let him go
I knew that, that was his limit, I knew he hated himself for what he was doing to us both, but I also knew that I had to forgive him so that he would forgive himself. I knew that. Either way, we were both wicked and cruel but we loved it so... No you cannot go... I pleaded one last time though it choked on my sobs, you cannot leave me, Seth please

I cried, I cried so hard, I cried for myself I knew I was being selfish and I cried for him for he was being selfish too, he cried too. For us . He promised he would wait but it wasn't good enough he had to come back he had to promise me that he would come back. I made him promise to come back and he blinked and he smiled and he sighed, the pain I felt was too much but I had to let him go I had to set him free. And with his last breath he said two names . Yours and Mine, that's how I know you are him.

You are Seth
Aren't you Dean?

Mirrored Me by Awonaike Seyi.

Why am I here?
For I do not obey a single rule
My back is turned to them,
Then, why am I here?
The things I want, things I crave for are hard to come by
The nightmares keep coming and,
As usual, I dine with my ancestors
Never feeling threatened
Even when I don't intend to
It's a sign, I know it's a bad sign







Why am I here?
Am mad, finally it has happened.
I fidget, cos I can't take it no more.
My neck is stiff, I made it so it won't turn,
It's robotic, the panic I feel hidden deep within












Am mad, I can't think straight,
I need a box to rest my brain,
A lock to keep my head,
And a body bag to store my flesh,
My soul needs to roam a little
It's cage is getting too small, too fast
An inch tighter and poof! I would be engulfed

Words I don't understand almost falling out of my mouth
Yet I wasn't praying,
I couldn't pray,
I can't pray
I can't even beg the devil
For he is beneath me.

Alas! I am mad and still can't think straight
Still looking looking for the box to rest my brain
The lock for my head,
And body bag to store my flesh.
My soul needs to roam a little
Dreams are no longer enough

My eyes are heavy with unspoken emotions,
As I sit, the statue in the white room
My  shadow is beneath me
I do not loook down
Another might pop up
I hear myself scream in a high pitched voice
Yet no sound


I struggle to be calm,
The charade has to go on... This is the Mirrored ME.