It's been months since we last spoke,
Even longer since I seen you..
I hear a couple of rumours from your people ,saying you are doing good and I understood the new you....
I blank out everything ,just so I can not remember your face but then i scroll down my picture folder and see that simple face with a lovely smile and that mad ass dimple, and everything begins to flood back in and I start reliving the best of our days...
I call this peom MAYBE because that's all you get by the end.... Maybe if I tell my friends that am over you and that I can not go through this pain again cos at the end of the day there's really no gain, maybe it would hurt less ,regardless of the fact that it's was all my fault.
Maybe If i stop going for my mile stone walks thinking about all the ways I could let you know that I truly still care but then I remember that you really don't care if i really truly care ,at least that was the last thing you said to me ....maybe if I stop going through your facebook page even tho I know you're never on it, maybe I could get some kinda closure "MAYBE" ....
Maybe I should just ring you with a withheld number so i could hear your voice ,maybe I should just be honest and call you with my number ,maybe I should stop staring at your number and just call you ...., so I do call with a withheld number just to hear your voice .... And here I am thinking I could not relate to Drake ,that's a good lie , cos the woman I would try ,is happy with ......... You get the picture
Maybe if I stop talking to all them girls about the future and actually take a leap of faith and throw myself out there and take a chance with someone new today, MAYBE this pain would go away, or MAYBE if I stop thinking about how special what we had was and how I don't see how you and I can ever find another US again, maybe I could live again...
Maybe this is fictional, maybe it's not...MAYBE am in pain ,maybe am not , MAYBE I still do care. Or maybe I don't ,maybe this is just a way to kinna get you back just "MAYBE" ... But no matter what the "maybe" could be ,one "Maybe" that's should never be a "Maybe" is that "Maybe I wish you well" cos there should never be a Maybe in that... Cos I do know I wish you well....*peace*
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