Friday, 29 April 2016

The promise by Awonaike Seyi.

They tried not to tell me, how cruel of them. He kissed me goodbye and said he would see me next week and next week, this week came and his desk was empty, his numbers not going through, I didn't see anything wrong in that, network was a big problem on sites. Still they refused to tell me, wicked was what they were and I hated them for it .
He had an accident, he is in Igbobi she told me, he has been there for three days  no, the rest was a blur
Oh God No!!! They said my love would never  walk again, I would walk for him
I would heal for him. But when I saw him, I knew I didn't have such strength
We met at work, we were enemies at first,  believe me we fought a lot to the extent that one of us had to be transferred to another office and everything changed after the new year's dinner the firm had 
I entered the new year with love in my heart and a man by my side. He was always there,I was always there, they all knew and we didn't care.
Six months of bliss and now this? I couldn't hold the tears down, I knew I had to be strong for him but he was my strength, I was not. I refused anyone from cleaning him up. My love, half here half there. I would rather he remained here than go there
I prayed, oh how I prayed and the next morning I went again his eyes lit up and I was glad that at least I could give him that and I mopped his body smiling and cleaned him up. Somehow, we talked with eyes only  and I saw his eyes and shouted No! What he was asking I couldn't give him. He was asking for my permission to go 
No you cannot do that! you cannot go and leave me here. So I told him the truth, that I could not heal for him, for we were broken together. I could not take away his pain, we felt it together and every morning as I cleaned him up and felt his broken bones, my bones shattered with his. If he goes, I go but we won't go together and we won't be together because I would hate him for giving up on us, because we both know that am not the strong one, he is my strength. If he stays, I stay by him and with him.

No you can't go you cannot leave me here alone, please don't go
I know how it sounded like, but it was no one's love to live and it was no one's love to judge. His eyes kissed me and I cried cause I knew I would have to let him go
I knew that, that was his limit, I knew he hated himself for what he was doing to us both, but I also knew that I had to forgive him so that he would forgive himself. I knew that. Either way, we were both wicked and cruel but we loved it so... No you cannot go... I pleaded one last time though it choked on my sobs, you cannot leave me, Seth please
I cried, I cried so hard, I cried for myself I knew I was being selfish and I cried for him for he was being selfish too, he cried too. For us . He promised he would wait but it wasn't good enough he had to come back he had to promise me that he would come back. I made him promise to come back and he blinked and he smiled and he sighed, the pain I felt was too much but I had to let him go I had to set him free. And with his last breath he said two names . Yours and Mine, that's how I know you are him.

You are Seth
Aren't you Dean?

1 comment:

  1. Great piece... Enjoyed it... Keep writing...

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